Untitled Success

Late in the day something funny crossed my mind and I wasn't for sure if I should shoo it away or let the thought soak into my mind. The thought that hit me was, "The only way to find success is to feel like garbage." My language usage is simplified, I know, and this is not an original thought either. Irregardless, this thought is worth pondering for at least a moment. To phrase it with more dignity, "The observer of life that finds the most hardship is the real winner of the human experience." Whether or not this statement should always hold true for all people at all times is a blasphemous train of thought. I don't think any singular philosophy should be observed with complete and utter confidence of fact, but there is a deeper meaning to the idea of hardship.

What is love without pain, happiness without tears, and anger without compassion? It appears to me that every emotion is universally intertwined because of the amount of chemicals switches turning on and off in our brain simultaneously. Similar to how one person can hate and love something or someone, it doesn't seem like feelings can escape their companion emotions. Many would argue with my prehistoric interpretation of emotions and the brain, but for the most part, there is some accuracy in my examination. Furthermore, I believe emotion is the promoter of much of the hardship we feel. There may be outside forces that affect our physical well being, and these are just as much connected to who we are emotionally. In consequence, we control our emotions in the darkest and lightest of situations. The hardship we own comes from controlling the volcanic eruptions, tectonic earthquakes, and blistering asteroids of emotion that puncture our mind. There are multitudes of emotions that are indescribable and take us through a theme park of life. Similar to much of eastern philosophical teachings, I think one must accept their emotions in order to find their inner peace. I don't fully agree with the idea of inner peace in that statement. My argument is that there is no such thing as inner peace, but the accepting part will take long strides and bounds off the realization of being in a state of impleasant harmony.

So what? Why should I accept that feeling hardship and impleasant harmony is advantageous?

Setting aside the questions of living forever, finding happiness, and money, experience tends to be the most valuable part of life. Speaking from a middle to lower class background, I don't know if I'd ever understand the joys of money. I can imagine happiness through money like it is perceived in entertainment, but to experience it is a different story. Like many things, there is likely some truth and some bullshit backing this theory. Like some guy, somewhere, once said, "There is not one path." Thus, whether I become rich, famous, happy, or live forever does not matter. I can take whichever path I fancy and can weave around from trail to trail or even beat my own path. To the universe, I especially don't matter, and I am just a series of equations that mathematically came together. I am not just a number, but an infinite amount of value, just like you or anyone else. Setting this philosophy aside, life is not about the end goal or up-and-coming race. Life is not about the money, but the experience, the jokes, and interest found along the trail you take in life. The great fruit that life gives is a bundle of many moments to understand who we are.

Impleasant harmony is the universe and who we are. I am human, an experiment in the cosmos. Over the course of billions of years, the universe has been performing experiments in order to perfect its creations via evolution and random events. I am imperfect for that reason, yet I feel as though I can do anything. I feel in harmony with the universe, a place larger than anyone can imagine. I am connected with every atom and physical law which governs my existence. At the same time, I am able to do daily tasks, fulfilling my emotional needs of wonder. I feel impleasant in reaching the precipice of both my thoughts and emotions. I don't fully understand who I am or what I long for, and that makes me feel impleasant. To further describe my state, I feel at ease, impleasant, and harmonious knowing that the universe is vast, and I am not alone in the exploration of who I am.

The advantage of feeling emotions and accepting hardship is that no bars ward me off from the random events the universe has planned for me. I don't believe the universe has anything planned, but I do believe there are some things completely out of our control. I feel whole in acceptance of my own imperfection. I am able to look deep into the vast darkness of space knowing that whether or not I 'succeed', the experience of doing all I can whether for adventure or discovery will emanate like a light flashing and filling the black of space with a white flurry of winter. I can do what I choose and don't fear being rejected by my own opinions.

The point is, if you feel bad, keep doing what makes your heart fill with strong emotions. Make it a good cause whatever you choose to do. By good, I mean something that doesn't discourage the passions and dreams of others. Everyone should have a chance to experience the world.

-Aus